I can't sleep since 6am till now.

The feeling is heavy and every moment I am trying to hold back my tears, each time thinking of my FIL.

He's a nice man who slogged hard to care for the family all these years. All his life, he loved and cared for the family and giving his ever readily support to his wife who had a weird cleaningness habit. He gives in to all her request no matter how unreasonable it may seemed to be and made sure that she is happy in her own little world. This man here earned the respect of many others and it is saddening to let him go.

The only regret is that we do not have a proper family portrait that we have of him with Kennzo. He loves him alot and often tells me that he wants to carry and play with him but he has no strength to do so.

He will be leaving us for good in the next 28 hours or so as much as we would like to hold on. However it would be a furtile hope that he would make it through and we wuld only be prolonging his sufferings. Maybe it's the best decision that we have made for him afterall.